Wednesday, March 21, 2007
finished with my ntu and nus application. passed my ftt. now what's there for me. sigh. i need another goal to look forward to, yes it can be super simple like cooking up a nice dish. or maybe that's a little hard. oh wells. someone says i'm immature and childish. which i totally disagreed at first. till today. maybe i really am that way. maybe that someone's really right. in that case i'm selfish too. and self indulgent. but i don't understand. i mean, is it wrong to be that way if i want to follow my dreams and be who i really want to be? how can following your dreams be such a burden. shouldn't you have followed your dreams. the sense of self fulfilment isn't just what i'm looking for though it plays a huge part. i prayed so fucking hard already okay! so just let me do it! i know it's a career everyone thinks doesn't got much prospects but i'm interested in it so please just give me a break ya'll. just BREAK OFF okay! hate you hate you hate you.i go around squealing how cute this guy is or the other one but seriously i don't give quite a damn about them. let's just put it -- cheap thrills? but the real long ones. come in only, for me, when i see someone and i don't know what to say. yes, we only see this in movies. and i did believe it only happened in movies. but there's these two guys i swear i have seriously no idea what to say in front of them. one was so yesteryears. the other is there. right now. there for me to say hi to, for me to talk to. ... ... for me to side glance and fall in love just like that.this is crazy. why is it so incredibly easy to fall in love; it should be as hard as falling out of love.heading down to mos or zouk later on. let's play this fate game. i'll see you when i do.
- everything's just temporary;
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